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Okay, so, I’m the type of person that if you give a problem to, I’ll be thinking and analyzing it all the time. So with my weight issue, I always think of inspirational things, things that can keep me going. Yet, I think of them, then forget them and screw up. That’s why I have to write everything down.

Nevertheless, I have just realized that going little by little is the best thing… I mean, I think of a month’s time and think, wow! A whole month and only loose 3 or 4 pounds?! That’s ridiculous!! But actually… that’s very good as it is recommended to loose 1-2 lbs a week anyway. Sooo, in conclusion, it is better loosing 1 pound a month than nothing at all right?

All in all, my goal is to loose 5 pounds a month. Maybe I can do more, maybe less, don’t know, but I’ll definitely try.

Thanks for reading!!

Oooookay!! SOOOO… I gained a total of 13 pounds back and let me tell you, that’s 13 pounds of pure food a.k.a fat and no exercise. AWESOME! Yaaaay!!! (that’s sarcasm for you btw, lol)  All right so.. while I’m obviously upset about this, I know it is only my fault and no one else’s… So, what am I going to do about this?  Well, I gotta get off my *ss and start getting more active again. However, this time… I really need a plan but I mean, a plan written down!

Oh yea, and I only could do 2 days of the master cleanse… but I don’t really want to talk about that.

 This blog is about my increase in weight and what I can do about it. Sometimes I think like “Oh yeaaaa!! I’m going to workout and eat healthfully and do everything right!” and I’ll get really exited and that’s when I blog on here and seem like I have everything under control.. but oh no, that’s not true at all.

I need my nutricionist back!!!!!!! I was going to her for about a month or two at first and in those two months or so, I lost 20 pounds with her guidance! She’s just expensive to go to and my health insurance sucks… lol. I have to do something though. Hmmm… so… someone PLEASE guide me through something… well.. I don’t know, this is actually something I have to do for myself… It’s just that I feel like everything has gone out of my grasp and control and now I have to reorganize everything. I’m the type of person that if I don’t have an organized plan and things written down on a to-do list, I won’t get it done and then I go crazy. So *sigh..* first I gotta clean up my room, get organized, make a plan and give it a go!

I think I’ll call it… “Operation Make Marie Loose 50lbs.”

1. Clean Room

2. Don’t know yet…

Thanks for reading!!

WOW! It’s been a while since I blog. I need to make buddyslim a routine again, I kinda got off track after my trip.

Well, I’m going to start by mentioning that after my trip to Mexico from seeing my boyfriend (which by the way was amazing!) I came back and kept on eating bad foods and binging A LOT! Lets just say, that for about a month (that counting the time I was on my trip and the amount of time of my binging here, I gained about.. 10-12lbs. Yay!… (sarcasm). I really didn’t want to even weigh myself. I didn’t want to see how bad it was. I knew I needed to get back on track but I just couldn’t stop! So.. I decided to research a diet I had read about a couple of months before.  The diet is called “The Master Cleanser” or “Lemonade Diet” as some know it. I researched everything I could about it and it seemed to me that 90% of the people that did it, LOVED it for the benefits it brought to them. So, I decided to take a different approach on my weight loss journey and decided to try this diet.

So, right now I’m on my first day. Got up this morning at 5:15a.m. for work and it is now 5p.m. and although I have eaten nothing all day long because of the way the diet works, I still feel just fine.

This “Lemonade Diet” for those who haven’t heard about it, consists of drinking salt water flushes in the morning, a special concoction of lemonade during the day and a laxative tea before bed at night. You cannot eat any food what so ever for the 10 days on the diet. (You can do the diet for up to 40 days, but it is recommended for first timers to just do the minimum 10 days as this way you will know how your body reacts to the diet.) Although this diet is to clean yourself from the inside out, it also has many other benefits. For example, in my case, while I do want to clean myself on the inside, I do it more than anything for the weight I will be loosing. On this diet, you can loose up to 20lbs of fecal matter. I know that sounds gross but I figured, if I can get rid of that and then work on eating healthy and working out, it’d be awesome!

Supposedly, people wanting to loose weight also do this diet because it’ll control cravings and your appetite will disapear. You’re metabolism will also receive a boost. So, those are some of the reasons I’m doing it for.

They say the first three days are the hardest, so.. wish me luck! (Please.. )

 I’m going to do everything in my power to make THIS time, THIIIIS time,  my last attempt at finally loosing my excess weight. I know I can do it! especially with the encouragement you guys give me.

 Thanks so much for reading my long blog!!

Well, I was doing GREAT for a few weeks. I even lost some inches around my body. Well, it was like .5 of an inch here, .5 there.. like that. I was logging everything I ate and all my exercise in my food journal. Everything was good and under control! I was happy..

Then! That evil french vanilla cake came one night… (lol… n_n’) I got a piece, then another, then another, then another… Until I had PLENTY of that cake. After that, for the past few days I’ve been pigging out like crrrrrazyy. The only good thing I’ve done is that I haven’t stopped going to the gym, or working out. So.. hopefully it won’t affect me so much. I just started a job as a cook last week so I don’t know what to do about my eating.. I mean, I don’t really eat at work, but I can. The thing is that I work 10 or 12 hour shifts, so, I’m bound to get hungry. I do have the time to sit down and eat a lunch but I have to eat from what I make there. The place is a wine bar/restaurant. I guess more like a bistro. I can’t really bring my own food.. so, what do I do??? I am NINE days away from seeing my boyfriend (he lives far from me) that I haven’t seen in over a year. So, what to do??

Heeeeeelppppp!!!!

Right now I’m trying to get the energy to go to the gym… I was planning on burning some 800 calories, to make up for yesterday’s ice cream frenzy.. Geez.. Maybe I’ll go later.. I guess.. :\

I’ve been feeling pretty good lately. I’ve been working out every single day for two hours at the gym doing from 3 to 6 miles a day of jogging/walking. Well, an hour is walking outside and an hour at the gym doing cardio as well as strength training. Although I haven’t weighed myself yet (I weigh myself only on fridays) so I don’t know if I’ve lost any weight. I know I have built stamina and strength however because I’ve been doing things I couldn’t do before.

The only problem though is that working out so hard makes me more hungry n_n… I’ve been getting more hungry than usual and as a result my portion sizes when I eat have gotten a bit bigger. I’m eating pretty healthy although I have had a few mistakes here and there. I’m really trying to get back on control with my diet. I don’t want to be making all this effort at the gym so I can come back home just to screw it all up. So, I’ll keep on trying to have a better diet.

With the Alli pills, they do take a while to take effect and do what they’re supposed to do but they do work. Now that I have my exercise routine down, I have to get my diet in order.

Hey, with exercise, a good diet and the Alli pills, I should be able to loose something right? I really hope so..

Well, as some people can see, I regained some weight from poor eating and no excercise, haha. Damn, I admit it does have me kind of down but not completely. I hate to say I’m detemined to loose weight and not be able to show you guys that I am. But anyway, I’m not going to get myself down right now.

Yesterday I bought some weight-loss pills from Wal-mart after doing some research on them. I’m not one to usually believe in these remedies and such but what convinced me about the Alli pills is that they work in the digestive system, so, there aren’t any jitters, headaches and the like. Another thing that convinced me to buy them was that they don’t have that message all of the other’s have saying something like “loose 10 pounds in 1 week!!” With the pills you have to really dedicate to eating healthy [a low-fat, low-calorie diet] which I do anyway and you have to commit to doing excercise. So, the pills do motivate me a bit more to do the excercising part. I do like to excercise but only once I’m out there doing it. To get myself to do it takes a lot of work, lol. I sound so lazy… n_n’  but.. it’s the truth.  I was also wondering if any of you have taken this pill… My brother has taken another type of weight-loss pill and it did wonders for him. So, I’ll see how it works for me.

Also, yesterday I was talking to my long-distance-boyfriend also, and well, we were honest with each other, he told me I am a bit fat, lol. He always says he likes me the way I am though and that if I want, I can loose weight or even gain it, he doesn’t care. He told me he’s always liked girls that are more overweight also but still… I’ve never liked being overweight. Gosh, easy for him to say since his weight is fine. But whatever, what can I do? Except work to loose weight, right? I’m going to see him now in July and well, I do want to impress him. Sigh… I don’t know why him telling me he loves me the way I am isn’t enough.. Has this happened to anyone else?

Anyway.. just wanted to let ya’ll know that I was taking this Alli pill and see if I could get any feedback on it.

Thanks for taking time to read my blog!

 -Marie

I’m so exited!!!!!! Today I graduated high school approximately at 9a.m. Then, I went shopping and my aunt bought me the most beautiful dress for my senior dinner next week as a graduation present. It’s that “balloon” type of style that is going on right and and it’s strapless and very short. I’m exited that I actually picked a dress like that! I would have usually been very VERY self conscious about it before. It’s not that I’m in a super great shape now, it’s just that I’m starting to feel comfortable in my own skin. Like.. I finally get it, it’s not about being skinny and being sexy and beautiful the way other people think of as beautiful and sexy, it’s about you accepting YOU the way you are, no matter what.

This really motivates me now and I want to get in shape so I can be the best that I can be for MYSELF. Not for others to accept me. Anyway, having a great personality always makes a person look simply gorgeous.

So, here’s the plan:

Although I had planned not buy me any clothes until I lost all the weight, I’m just gonna do it anyway. Lol, I’m going to grab $1,000 from my saving account and for the next two months, guess what? I’m going on a shopping spree!

The thing is that although I have a buuuuuuuuuuunch of clothes, more than 60% of that clothing is seriously from when I was a little girl and I still even use it. It’s just hard for me to throw clothes away, but no more of that! My wardrobe needs to mature and get updated! I need to stop dressing so like… blah.. lol. Tomorrow there’s a neighborhood garage sale so I’m taking out all of my “sellable” clothes and the rest that is still usable, I’m donating it to a local charity.

So, I am FINALLY done with high school and am not working right now since I had to take some night school in addition to my daily morning and afternoon school. I’m going down to Mexico this summer for some 10 days to see my boyfriend and I’m sooo exited! Since I’m leaving in about two months, 8 weeks, I decided not to get a job for now and will get one as soon as I come back. That way, these next two months, I’m gonna be hitting the gym and getting as fit as I can. I’ll have nothing else to do anyway, lol. I’m so happy that I’ll have some just me time to finally enjoy most of the stresses in my life go away.

I’m loving life!

Oh yea, and, I am a bit addicted to shoes and clothing.. I dunno.. it makes me happy, lol.

Thanks for reading and all of your support!!!!!!!

Okay, well, I few days ago I was going crazy and well, the last three days haven’t been “healthy days” either because I allowed myself to pig out and not let myself feel guilty either n_n’

The thing is that I was going coo coo over some big things going on in my life right now [graduation and finishing some huge projects and something about seeing my boyfriend this summer because he lives way far] but I feel more in control now and am definitely going to get back on track! If I don’t Roxi is going to catch up to me! Lol.

So, I’m gonna whip out my food journal again so I can restart logging what I eat every day and get back on my Special K diet. I’m a cereal killer [lol, I’m a dork] so I enjoy that diet. Because of now graduating high school I’ll be able to get back into running and attending the gym.

Yay!! I should always remember how good it feels to loose weight!

Thanks soooo much for all of your support guys, especially you Roxi! You guys are great!! It feels great knowing that I can really vent my feelings of vinging on food and all of my weight issue stuff here because it is not something easy to open to other people about, call it insecurity.

Again, thank God I found this site and thank you bunches Roxi, you rock girl!! But don’t beat me!!! lol

Good luck in everything that you guys do!!!! Thanks for reading!

Well, I’m under so much freaking stress it’s not even funny. So, how do I deal with stress?? I STUFF my face!! I’ve been eating today like craaaaazzyyy!! And although I’m terrably full, I don’t stop eating. I feel like vomiting already. GOSH!!!! I can’t even taste food any more. I decided to already stop because I’m really on the verge of throwing up.  I’m upset at myself though because just two days ago I tried some pants I have in my closet that didn’t even go up my legs a few months ago and now it fit!!! So.. I guess I messed THAT one up because I have been eating very poorly the past three or four days.. not as bad as today though…

Aaah.. let me say that I had been on the Special K diet for like three weeks and it really worked.

I hate myself..

Okay so.. lately, I’m totally out of control. Let’s say for the past two weeks I’ve just been going crazy with the fattening foods like ice cream, cakes, candy, fried food, etc. I’m guessing it’s because I’ve been under soooo much stress lately and I’m such an emotional eater. I was so motivated before… I don’t know what’s happened. I used to go to a nutricionist also, and everything was going great! That is.. until my health insurance started acting up again and now they don’t want to cover my visits. [I hate my health insurance, just had to get that out there] So, now I just don’t know much what to do to get back on track… My diet was to eat a nice healthy breakfast under 300 calories, a good lunch of about 300-400 calories and then a dinner of  the most, 500 calories. In between I’d get mostly fruit and things like that. This is ridiculous… I don’t want to start back at 0.. What’s wrong with me?.. I need motivation really bad. I was thinking today that I was going to buy me a pair of jeans of the size I want to be and try them on about once a month, or maybe every two weeks to see how they fit.. maybe this motivates me. What do you guys think?

Sigh… I just hope I can get back on track.. I’m so tired of feeling and being overweight..